Subconscious confessions

Miss the kiss of your words
The whisper of your thoughts
Your hearts soft touch
The moments we spent side by side
Slight hesitations that turned into deep conversations
How I yearn to be entranced by your gaze
Lost amongst blissful calm
I miss it all
That deep bond
Quiet yet teasing laughter
How we debate
Going on about anything regardless how off topic
Sitting here rambling
Confessions of subconscious thoughts
No real you just pieces of the puzzle
Yet still I miss her
Wonder if she knows how deep she scarred me
With a love so pure

Temporary detour

Know its been awhile and its no excuse
Life threw a few detours in my way
And I'm sorry if it seems like you've been ignored
Wanna let you know you're always on my mind
So I can't let you go ghost on me
Next to my son you mean the world to me
Know I gotta do better to show my appreciation
All I ask is that you don't stop believing in me
We've been threw to much to quit right now
You know its always been a long shot
But thats makes it even better
Delayed for awhile but never deterred
Reconnecting with that first love is so fulfilling
Poetry

Hanging Edge....30/30-2

Shadows cling
Obscuring the jagged edge
The figure hanging
By strained fingers
Desperately trying to rise
Back above it
Hell's depths teasingly call
Seductively whispering
How easy it would be
Let go of it all
The pain, the hurt, the dreams
Give in to oblivion
Sweat dripping from scarred brow
Defiantly he growls
Tighter his grip becomes
On the edge and reality once more

Expression....30/30-1

The dam finally breaks
Ink dripping with thunderous force
Bombarding the page
As if by a crazed beast
Every line is savaged
In the poets fevered haste
Words are forgotten or misplaced
Sentences run on or abruptly stop
Thoughts seems disconnected in the over all scheme
Yet its all just the result of much needed release
Unuttered words finally find a voice
A way to escape dark thoughts and imaginings
In midnight ink they sing out across blue veins
Along eggshell pages
Peace finally finds the poet as the pen runs dry
Calm settles in as sweat kisses the page one last time
Eons seemed to have passed
Since last time this poet touched a page

For being wrong

This is to the nay sayers
The ill wishers
Those that hope for your down fall
A one fingred salute followed by success
To those that only wished for your failure
The ones that hate to see you happy
Smile in your face as they scheme on ways to make you lose
If I knew then what I know now
I'd do it just a little bigger and a bit better
But I'm happy to say you never told me so
Thank you for betting against me
With out your ill will I'd never have the drive
And you know what I still wish em the best
I'm a mess
Cause I'd keep em at arms length
So they could know success vicariously through me
Call it flaunting if you must
But I earned every bit of it

Stuck

This block has been hard to crack
Writing with a troubled pen
Navigating through life's detours
Mind soar from worries
Fingers ache to dance with pen
Words fall woefully short
Inspiration stays eluding this grasp
What am I to do sitting in limbo?
Wasting away time while being idle
Life seems to forgotten this poet
Or is it this poet has forgotten life?

Ignored

Ignored...
A muse lays by the shore
Of ones mind
Almost forgotten
Like a distant memory
Ignored...
Battered by the waves
She lays waiting
To be noticed once more
By the poet
Ignored...
Lost at sea it seems
A poet navigates
Through storms
Looking for a lost love
Unknowingly passing her
On forlorn shore
Ignored...
A muse waits
To once again embrace
A poets heart

Back again...final time

Damn it
Again it seems a poet lapsed
To caught up in the everyday
Worries and pains
Distractions and woes
Joys also
Can not lie its been fun at times
Yet neglect sets in
Few words have flowed
Oh one or two have known them
Though here and there
Neglect is shown
But this time
It will be permanently corrected
No more desertions of love
Giving it my all
And hunting down old friends
Other sites where words lay
To do the same
So again and finally
I'm back again.

Dreams.....28/30

Dreams
They seem so far away
Yet rest right on the horizon
Though haze the corporal form can be seen
Dreams
When one stops pushing they fade
Recede like the tide when low
Become distant like stars
Dreams
Never let anyone tell you they can't be real
Don't ever give in when an attempt fails
Learn from set back and change method of attainment
Dreams
Only a blink away
Yet can take years to see
Patience and determination are two main keys
Dreams
Anything is possible when you set your heart, mind and soul to it

Lost love.....25/30

Seems like another life
These dreams of better times
Images of you plague these thoughts
So caught in phantom kisses and caresses
Aching for a touch
No longer familiar
Estranged from a love that seemed heaven sent
Regrets bent on crushing what's left
Tired of holding a breath
Thinking of all the should's
Wondering if you still feel anything