Faded regrets

It should of been you

That kiss after a nervous caress

The moment my breath caught then escaped me

It should have been us

Late nights into pre dawn conversations

Plans of romantic get aways

Intimate meetings after dinner

Making our own private movies

It should of been me

Reaching to pull you close

Telling you how you mean so much

Come up with the mushy stuff

It would of been

Yet instead its you with another

But how can I complain

I'm the one that changed

Closed up and pushed you away

Wasn't another to be honest

It was the fact some where along the way

Fear caught me in mid fall

Cept i should of pushed through

And let you catch me

Waiting

Been a long road
Yet seems like there wasn't enough time
Took forever to get here
And yet it flew by faster then lighting strikes
Fading like the morning dew
Precious like water to the desert
A fly by romance
Fragile like a snow flake
Here on out every heartbeat is in anticipation of a reunion with you

Seasonal

Short nights and long days
Winter refuses to give up chilling embrace
Spring teasingly leaves cool kisses
Warm caress soothingly argues
Promising to come back for another year
But summers on its mind
Impatiently waiting for burning kisses

Tortured bliss

Candle burns low as midnight comes
Reminiscing of sessions gone by
Sensory memory overloaded
Craving your taste and scent
Yearning to hear your whispered submissions
Enjoying vocal stutters of your ecstasy filled releases
Patience thrown to the wind
Fingers ache to trace every dip and curve
Pure bliss mixed with torture
How the tables turn when thoughts of you restrained leave me hunger for more
A slave to greedy desires

Depths

Tide rises as twilight falls
Depths widen to swallow light
Beneath the waves hope seems foreign
Chill embrace slowly teases strength away
All seems lost
Even the horizon turns away from doom fate
Yet upon its one last ray shines
Dancing on the razor edge
Kicking off from shifting depths
Flicker of an almost forgotten dream
Rekindling a hunger for life

Rebellious thoughts

Tired of long days and short nights
Needless struggle with little reward
Saying the same thing just from different view
Like we're already setup to lose
Yet just can't accept it
Gotta fight against the grain
Obliterating enslaved mentality for clearer reality
Cause really this life is what you make it
Even with a bad hand here there
In the end you chose if its gonna make or brake you

No judgment

How can one judge when you can't see
The struggle your fellow man goes through
Comparing your troubles and woes to the next one
Not understanding how far they've had to come
Laughing at their misfortune or hating on their success
Not knowing if they have a family to feed
Or none at all cause of hard times
Belittling ones success after the trials they've over come
Demanding they give yet not knowing the sacrifice needed to obtain that wealth
Easy to talk when the views different
Stop wishing and dishing an get on the grind
Time wasting away while sitting around critiquing others
Yet some remain wishing upon the banks while life passes by

Working on it

When is it enough
Tough to walk away
Fall in love they say
But never did they say if it would be easy to get out of
Answer for starting it but not for getting over it
Times change yet they remain the same

Wise words

In silence truth speaks
Brave hold tongue while fools jest
Strong let actions talk while weak blather on
Yet the wise waist little air
While jesters weave long tales

Thoughts of her

Plunging into your depths
Memorizing your scars
Playfully teasing your thoughts
Savoring every reaction
Drunk off kisses from whispering lips
Delighting in how every stroke pushes you
Teetering on razors edge
Until into a blissful abyss of pleasure you fall
Feasting on your moans
Tongue glides across neck etching out teethes path
Biting deep until gasp of pleasure tinged pain are uttered

Erotic thought

Taste familiar like a memory
Every flavor of you etched upon tongue
Scent tantalizingly teases thoughts
Enticing erotic fantasies
Replaying pleasurable tryst
Hungering for passionate touch
Yearning to devour honey kissed lips
Impatiently waiting to tease sensitive peaks

Taboo

Midnight calls enticingly
Tryst under star kissed sky
Entwined with out a care
Forbidden love under twilights sheet
Wrong time right person
This is how it always seems
Eternity of passion compressed to finite moments
Lust scorched tongues explore and tease
Heated finger beg and caress
Whispers of need follow deep thrust
Lustful love is slowly grinded between reckless strokes

Standing firm

Head bowed but not in shame or defeat
Accepting blessings and offering thanks
Divine shines through me
Not perfect but amazing for divine resides in me
Knowledge of self obtain
So refrain from bullshit
Feet solidly planted so no moving me
Not always right and can admit it
No shame in me
When right wont blap just a smile and wink
Long road ahead but navigation on high
Maybe slowed up but heading in the wrong direction isn't happening
Firm in principals and belief

Hope remains

Been to the moon and back
Touched upon the stars
Yet still humans make war on amongst themselves
How cheap life seems compared to a few individuals greed
So short their views seem
Discarding the wonders of the verse
To maintain physical gains
Yet man proves tenacious
Like the rose that grew from concrete

Insightful Rambling

Seems like the world spinning faster than usual
Or maybe its just me being overwhelmed
Feels like forever since it made sense
Maybe it will after a few sentences
Time stays banging the gavel
Can't help being born a rebel
What they call the norm I can't conform too
Always had my own beat
Maybe why right now the world seems off key
Cause it can't be me
Or maybe its because I'm just shooting off quickies
Looking for a short cut
But honestly just trying to work smarter
That way it wont be so hard later
Yet ever thing is going wrong
Guess this is how one finds out how strong they can be
When your finite verse spin is thrown off
How quick and well you can bounce back is proof

Dive deep

Depths speak of the limits
Willing to dive deep
Open hearts ocean and release fear
First steps the hardest but take with out care
Never promised it'd be easy
But guess it wasn't stressed how hard it'll be
Put ya worries on hold
Tell em to take a long vacation
Come here and place hand upon pen
Only way to gain love from a poet

Hope

Flickering like s candle flame
Hope dances with shadows of despair
In the cold winds of indifference
Still hope prevails
Fighting against the inevitable dark
Hope still fights to remain stong

Still Pushing

Never said it would be easy
Just told you that in the end I'd make it worth your while
Promised more smiles than frowns
More ups than downs
Know at times it hard to love
But if you trust and believe in us
We can accomplish anything
The start was good but the ride got rough
Took a few detours and got turned around
Few times came close to walking
But had those memory's wouldn't let me
My words turned me around too
We drive each other crazy
Yet gotta admit its been one helluva ride

Humble thought

Swimming through a starry river
Listening to a divine melody
Courting angelic favor
The daydreams of a poet
Battling in hellish depths
Writing symphony's of woe and regret
Matching wits with devilish rogues
The imaging's of an artistic mind
Daily whole works play out in minds eye
Adventures of greatest scales
Romances of the deepest love
Fears from darkest corners
All tools of incredible writers
These things all grow from child like wonder inside
An author/poet/artist greatest treasure
In my humblest opinion

Loves Thief

Kiss the sunset till angels sing
Watching passion bleed across the sky
Heavens gate cracked open
Her heart I stole
A piece of heaven on earth
The slickest of thieves
Never tasted a love so pure
Like the smoothest of wines
Never seen it coming
Yet it couldn't resist
To lay claim to one of the rarest treasures of the Divine

Lovers dance

Hearts race on the wind
Rushing to revive lovers flame
Through moonlit rivers and shadowy forrest
Hearts race on the wind
Chasing after elusive dreams yet young for ever more
Man in the moon watches lovers
Voyer to their secret meetings
Only single tale is moons intensifying of light upon lovers

Stubborn

Same space and same time
Yet worlds apart
Couldn't be any further if you resided on venus and me on mars
Seems all we do is scar each other
So why bother with so called love
Are we to far gone
Residing in the same place
Yet more distant than land masses
How can this love grow so cold
Saying the same thing
Guess it isn't the same in the end
But can't quit
I don't wanna take the loss

Echo

Even as the day closes
Time fades from carefree hands
Only the echo of its memory remains
Like stains against the soul

Lovers doubt

Every word uttered seems misconstrued
Or worst goes unheard
How can it be the one you love most
Understands the least about you
Seems they have the deepest doubt
Regardless of the battles fought together
The challenges conquered and trials overcome
They still seem clueless when it comes to your heart
But how can this be
When everything is clearly spread across the table
To be scrutinized by questioning eyes
Explained in the most expressive yet simplest form
Completely open to them
Thinking its nothing because finally the last barrier falls
How come then its like a knife parting flesh
Shallow wound yet so raw it cuts deep to your soul

Doubt

Suppose to be walking together
Seems like we wandered apart
Or better yet more like walking backwards
Pushing against each other
Should be pulling one another forward
Making this climb together
Yet feels like the weights uneven
At times feel like someones completely absent
Maybe its stress just digging deep
Stirring up bad memories
Fight through the fog
Hope you're waiting there patiently

Against it all

Reaching for the heavens
Even while feet trapped in the quagmire
Unbeliefs and nay says go unacknowledged
Dreams fight for space in reality
Pushing pass boundaries of limitations
Taming the impossible until it becomes the norm
Fear of looking on chance of missing opportunity
Learning how to fly even with torn broken wings

Dreamers fiction

Amidst twilights rising dance
Sun kisses moon's ghostly lips
Distant lovers greet for finite moments
Eternity emblazons tranquil scene across it pages
Even shadows yield their hold
As waters burn bright
Whilst two lovers dance amongst heavens plane

Lovers Expression

Seemed we did the impossible
Caution lost on the wind
Two hearts on the same beat
Delving deeper than the physical
Almost on a supernatural level
Connected on each plane
This synergy is addicting
A fiend to your love
Made a cold heart burn with life
Vision clear once again
Only thing stopping us is ourselves
And long as we're together theres no worry
Lets take on eternity

Twisted thought

Darkness devours good intent
Under pale dancing moon
Sickness blankest desolate land
Yet the hammer hesitates driving the last nail home
Amongst the fading light a glimmer of hope struggles
Clawing from festering despair
Fighting till dawn breaks horizons plane
Denouncing dismal end
Hope is reborn with suns warm kiss

Subconscious confessions

Miss the kiss of your words
The whisper of your thoughts
Your hearts soft touch
The moments we spent side by side
Slight hesitations that turned into deep conversations
How I yearn to be entranced by your gaze
Lost amongst blissful calm
I miss it all
That deep bond
Quiet yet teasing laughter
How we debate
Going on about anything regardless how off topic
Sitting here rambling
Confessions of subconscious thoughts
No real you just pieces of the puzzle
Yet still I miss her
Wonder if she knows how deep she scarred me
With a love so pure

Temporary detour

Know its been awhile and its no excuse
Life threw a few detours in my way
And I'm sorry if it seems like you've been ignored
Wanna let you know you're always on my mind
So I can't let you go ghost on me
Next to my son you mean the world to me
Know I gotta do better to show my appreciation
All I ask is that you don't stop believing in me
We've been threw to much to quit right now
You know its always been a long shot
But thats makes it even better
Delayed for awhile but never deterred
Reconnecting with that first love is so fulfilling
Poetry